Lord, please heal me completely. I believe and trust that you can perform miracle, you will heal me completely.
This is the prayer I kept praying ending with ‘if not maintain the condition”. Such little faith I have right? Surely, I’m looking for a miracle lah!!
After seeing Dr. Tan, a Nephrologist and a Methodist, I’m really happy that my Cholesterol and Sugar are Good but there’s still protein leakage. However, Dr. Tan feels that it’s a mild case and it’s not rare. There’s no cure or treatment for the inflammation in my kidney. Medication might do more harm then good.
So anyway, that’s my cross to carry. What hits me was Dr. Tan’s reply to my words. He told me that I may not die with a kidney problem but maybe something else and he will not be able to see the end of the episode.
So I said, he will see it being completely healed. And he replied, is it really necessary? Even the blind man touched people’s lives. He believes that I still can make a difference to many other lives too even with my little problem. It’s so true! Do I really need a miracle? Or am I seeking for a miracle just to prove God’s healing power and for his affirmation?
Thinking further, it’s because of this problem that I’m learning more about my own health and taking better care God’s Temple. It’s also because of this that my faith and Religious Life formation has been challenged and strengthened.
The whole process and journey of discovering this cross which affects my Religious Life formation is more important than a complete healing. Moreover, if I have a perfect health, will I still have such an experiential journey? Will I ever learn and treasure my own body?
I thank God that my condition isn’t that serious. Indeed God is still there for me. Duh! Always will be with all of us. And everything that happens, definitely has got a purpose and a reason. That’s God’s PLAN.
So, dear friends… thank you for all your prayers.
And… yes.. I have arrived safely at Petaling Jaya and looking forward to the start of my course the following week. Another NEW experience!!!
