O Jesus, why did you fall on me? Why did you decided to roll away? What message do you have for me? 2 days continuously!!!!Jesus (the host) came onto my hands as I was transferring into my mouth, it seem to have bounced off my hands, landed on the sanctuary and started rolling away…
I was in a shocked, Oh no!!!! I quickly crawled onto the sanctuary, stopping it from rolling, picked it up and consumed it. It was a little embarrassing but more of a shocked. I was perspiring too.
Before communion, I decided to play “Unless a gain of wheat” as a communion hymn because the verses matches with the Gospel. During communion, as I was playing, I was even more shocked with the words: ”Unless a gain of wheat shall fall upon the ground and die, it remained but a single gain with no life.” My Jesus really fall, what is it telling me??
As I was reflecting on the bus, Jesus did fall and give life to the people.
Is Jesus telling me that I have to fall in order to have life? Is Jesus teaching me humility? Or dying to my old self, or dying to the worldly things???
How can it be linked to yesterday’s incidences?
Yesterday what happened was Father dropped my host and during breakfast I was stained with chili on my nice pink blouse, white skirt which I hardly wear and new white shoes. The fall of my host reminded me that Jesus falls on the way to Calvary as I picked up the host. And the stained on my beautiful outfit made me reflect on detachment, dirtiness and getting myself into buying worldly materials (new shoes). I too remembered that yesterday morning on the way to church I was asking myself if I’m able to detach myself (as I was a bit more well dressed then usual) if I really enter. I was confident that I am able.
So Jesus, what your actual message for me?
