On the move again!

Angeline is PACKING again!!
This is my 3rd BIG packing since February 2010.

Actually, this time not so bad, just going away for about 10 weeks not shifting yet, but I felt that it’s a pretty long time and it’s better to pack away the other stuff which I’m not bringing.

The consolation is that it’s something I’m looking forward to as I needed something more substantial and stable for my growth and discernment. Ya! I’m finally leaving for Petaling Jaya, Malaysia not for purely Medical Check AGAIN like the last time but for my Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE) course at Assunta Hospital. Also yes, another medical follow up as well, hopefully all cleared, miracles to happen right!!

Have been 2 months since I shifted to Tampines. Time flies, even though it’s challenging here, I had nice experiences too… didn’t share with you in my last post.

I have been attending Qi Gong classes conducted by Fr. Edward at Church of the Holy Trinity since my arrival and it’s relaxing, fun and healthy. I enjoyed dancing around with the steps but it’s very hard to remember them all.

Also, I have attended Mandarin Mass twice, and would be the thrice this Sunday. Well, I still can’t really understand and response but it’s beautiful ‘Qing Chong’. What attracted me most is the Chinese community spirit. What I questioned is about the continuity of the younger generation. Anyway, I never expect myself to be attracted to Mandarin Mass as my Mandarin is horrible to the extend that my Chinese Teacher was so angry that she walked out of the classroom because I could start to write a word for my composition.. that’s how bad…

Wisdom: these words came to me when I was writing this blog… I wonder…..

“When there’s packing means there’s unpacking too.”

Happy Easter!

Woh! really long time never update my blog… am I that busy? Perhaps Yes!! Busy sorting up my mysterious health and formation journey.

Anyway!!!.. Happy Easter to all of you. May the Risen Lord light up your path into a deeper relationship with Him.

How interesting life can be? How mysterious God is working in my life! It’s all unexplainable.

After spending about 4 months at Maris Stella Convent, the sisters finally decided to move me to a newly formed pre-novitiate house at Tampines. I arrived at Trinity community on 25th March 2010, Feast of Annunciation. It’s again a hard change. From a big community where I have less responsibilities and work, to a small community with more work and sessions. I feel that it’s not so much of shifting house but the whole mess or rather the whole mystery in my formation programme which I don’t know how to explain. At one side, I pity myself for having such as weird journey, on the other hand, I thank God for the many experiences.

It’s has been 1 year since I enter in March 2011. Time just flies but this stage of formation is taking too LONG!!! Again THINK POSITIVE!!! It’s good, I should learn to enjoy while I still can… BUT it’s WASTING of TIME!!! It’s not! God sends me different challenges to strengthen my faith, vocation and whole being. BUT it’s too TOUGH!! Well… if I can’t even ‘tahan’ this, in future it might be even worst.

Anyway, I’m 1 month here already, 1 month more to go before I visit Malaysia again for my doctor’s appointment and to attend the Clinical Pastoral Education programme. I’m looking forward to the course yet worried for my medical checks.

One of my new programme here enables me to have a entirely new experience of ministering to a Catholic school (Hai Sing Catholic School). It’s my first time getting involved in school ministry as I never attended any convent schools back then. Although, I goes to the school only once a week during their Catholic fellowship programme, it helps me to understand more about the new generations Catholic youths. They are lovable, innocent and full of energy.

This Easter, I also get to have a new experience at Holy Trinity Church. It’s the first time I get to witness immersion baptism. It’s very beautiful and symbolical too. If I’m still back at Kuala Terengganu, Easter celebration would probably be very very simple without baptism. It’s I’m still back at IHM.. hee hee… ai yo… lagi cannot compare lah… anyway, I’m really grateful for what I have here.

Also, another blessing here I think is the opportunity to experience room sharing for 2 weeks before my room mate left for Malaysia for her renewal programme. Well, she’s a healthy elderly sister. Although, I don’t get much privacy and personal space in the comfort of my own room, I learnt to care for her, be sensitive to her needs and bear with all inconveniences. Also, sometimes it’s really nice to have a room mate to chat with before bed time. Now, that she’s away, I get the room to myself, it’s also a blessing, YEAH!

Ok.. so to end this sharing… really!.. I felt that my whole formation is so mysterious just as God is also so mysterious. I believe that if we are able to allow God to work in us mysteriously, ultimately, we are the one who will GAIN… we have no LOST. The problem is… Are we able to allow God to work in us in such a way? Am I able to allow HIM?