It’s exactly 1 month away from my departure. A short moth though. How am I feeling? It’s a very ‘Rojak’ feeling. On one hand I feel that there’s a lot needed to be done, not enough time, but on the other hand, I’m very free, no need to work, don’t know what to do, can’t wait for the day to come. In conclusion, my anxiety level is very high. It’s torturing but I know it’s still a journey of waiting that the Lord wants me to experience.
Sometimes, I feel that the way I’m doing things is as though my last day is coming. Well, it’s good to live every moment well, but NOT the way I sometimes do, wanting to go, to do and try all things available.
Just in the month of January, I learned to appreciate everything as though it would be the last time. I found myself pushing myself to do the best, love and appreciate friend’s companionship more, not taking all things for granted.
I could see how much the Lord has blessed me with friends, who are ever willing to walk with me during this most difficult moment of waiting and leaving. I’m so so appreciative simply because I am unable to find such support in my most beloved family. The Lord knows best what I’m lacking of.
So… 1 more month of FREEDOM….. better get going to do what I should be doing….like WHAT??? Oopss… I also don’t know!!!! Sigh…
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